Makes it even doubly worse that this is a friend who NEVER asks for help or anything. Like damn, the one time he reaches out I drop the fucking ball. Makes me feel sick😞
Few things make me feel worse about myself than my friend needing money for something and me not being able to help out. Especially because I know he’d do it for me and has done it for me. I feel like such a fucking loser chud.
I gotta get an actual well paying job or win the lottery or start hoeing for money because I need to be able to take care of the people I love anytime they need helpppp
Did my nails and toes, massaged my scalp and did some hair oiling and mask, took an everythingggg shower while listening to Amy Winehouse, now I’m reading while eating some watermelon and drinking my nightly peppermint tea🤍