having shitty parents really ruins your whole youth and your mental health for a lifetime and puts you at a huge disadvantages academically, socially and professionally and people just expect you to get over it
For neurodivergent people, a 4 PM appointment doesn't take up an hour. It takes up the entire day.
From 9 AM onward, you are in "Waiting Mode." You can't start a hobby, you can't relax, and you can't do chores because your brain views the upcoming social event as a looming system update that requires 100% of your background processing power.
You spend the whole day paralyzed just preparing to look normal for 60 minutes.
Unfortunately, I have to admit that I have not done my best. My current situation is a direct consequence of my incompetence. I suck at doing this life thing.
Turns out that "gifted child" who used to finish exams in 10 minutes without studying, read entire novels under the desk during math class, and got praised for being hyper-mature... was actually just an undiagnosed ADHD kid running on pure, unregulated novelty and high-stakes pressure.
Psikolojiye göre eğer saat 4’te bir randevun varsa ve gün boyunca başka hiçbir şey yapamıyorsan, bu tembellik değildir. Buna “bekleme modu” denir. Beynin yaklaşan şeyi o kadar büyük bir zihinsel görev gibi algılar ki, diğer her şeyi durdurmaya başlar. Bu durum özellikle anksiyete ve panik yaşayan insanlarda oldukça yaygındır.
if i knew it would turn out like this i would’ve just killed myself at 16 , i’m so stupid for having hope, thinking there would be light at the end of the tunnel