this is real as fuck and i genuinely hate how everyone just Has to have the phone now like there's lowkey no viable way to Not have it bc it feeds into my anxiety disorder in really crazy ways. just gotta have the torment nexus in my pocket or i can't do anything
Honestly, I think my childhood trauma came from feeling emotionally distant from my own family. I learned very early to stay quiet about my feelings because whenever I needed comfort or understanding, I felt unheard. So instead of expressing my pain, I started pretending I was okay.
I became someone who cried alone, healed alone, and carried heavy emotions silently. Maybe that’s why I love people so deeply now, because I know how painful it feels to not feel emotionally understood by the people who were supposed to make you feel safe.
And the saddest part is, those family wounds stay with you. They make you overthink, fear being unwanted, and get attached to small acts of kindness because deep down, all you ever wanted was genuine love and emotional safety.
I feel very present in my body bc that fucker is hurting and it makes me feel good? I’m very happy with my life at the moment? I’m able to give love and receive it in a way that makes me feel such a sense of community? Met so many new friends at the weekend?
@nightchancers I had to do garlic and onion too and it was nearly the end of me, I’ve found shallots are ok onion wise but spring onions are like theeeeee worst
@EarthToKerra Pls check with your gp first! I’ve not done it with that particular medicine but the withdrawals I had with sertraline made me a little bonkers like I felt drunk without drinking for about 2 weeks straight
Im so happy and excited and nervous with everything that’s going on for me right now and at the same time so absolutely overwhelmingly sad that the person I want to share it with most is no longer around
Crazy how having rough sex with someone who loves you and sharing a cigarette with them before falling asleep in their arms without taking off your makeup will make you look more young and beautiful than this