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each + every word i didn't know how to say

[☆ @glocudi]

you think i don't care? i watched you give up on me, i watched you give me those dry replies everyday, i watched you slowly talk to me less everyday, i watched you. I watched you slowly lose interest in me and slowly walk out of my life.

[☆ @glocudi]

no matter what you said or did, i still saw the good

[☆ @glocudi]

i saw the good in you no matter what happened

[☆ @glocudi]

i realized that some connections are just not meant to last forever and i accept the experiences that they come in

[☆ @glocudi]

you never loved me, you loved the idea of being loved by someone

[☆ @glocudi]

be happy, it drives people insane

[☆ @glocudi]

i tell myself i don't want to wake up but now i don't sleep, so there is no waking up. i guess it worked, but not the way i hoped.

[☆ @glocudi]

i’ve been waiting for someone to save me but it doesn't work like that

[☆ @glocudi]

if i think about it as "just another thing i ruined" it doesn't hurt as much

[☆ @glocudi]

i think i have a subconscious fear of being happy, i don't know. i tell myself anything to make it seem okay that i’m ruining myself.

[☆ @glocudi]

i used to think you gave me butterflies but now i recognize it was just the feeling of anxiety

[☆ @glocudi]

i feel like i'm playing tug of war with him and i'm always losing

[☆ @glocudi]

i keep wanting to tell you that i don't care that you're sorry, but a part of me does

[☆ @glocudi]

you hid me from everyone but now all i see is you and her

[☆ @glocudi]

i hate how things feel like thev're falling apart and you're changing

[☆ @glocudi]

the more i love you the more it hurts, i don’t think that’s how it should work

[☆ @glocudi]

i watched you give up on us

[☆ @glocudi]

love the people God loaned you because he's going to want them back one day.

[☆ @glocudi]

i feel so empty inside

[☆ @glocudi]

how can i be so cruel to myself when i'm doing the best i can?