Just a little inside in my mind, I have tought about suicide, drank a lot of alcohol and smoked to keep my mind at peace. But it never did, only God has ever done that for me
My Lord, forgive this sinner, for he knew what he did and still turned his back towards you. Forgive him for not listening and staying with you. Please bring me closer again and let me never run astray once more. Thank you, O my Lord. Amen
I even tought about becoming a priest, but now I don't think they will take me anymore. Half a year can ruin a relationship with God. Atleast I know He will still be there when I come back
I won't go into detail about what I did, but it messed me up mentally and physically. I should have never left Jesus when I was finally getting so close to Him. It took years and last year I finally tought I had a purpose and then I went and trew it all away.