sebelum baca Substack: aku gamau kecintaan sendiri.
setelah baca Substack: boleh tidak, aku memintamu mencintaiku dengan cara yang paling berisik? sebab, diriku sepi sekali, sayang.
“Mau pulang” holds a special meaning for me. When i was at my weakest point and felt like i was losing my mind, “mau pulang” was the only thing i could scream while crying my eyes out. Even tho i was already home.
pada dasarnya, in the reality of life, orang lain jarang bener2 peduli sama lu unless you somehow benefit them.
jadi betapa indahnya if you find a place where you're accepted, tanpa dituntut untuk menjadi siapa pun atau apa pun.
gua pernah denger, if you don't learn the lesson, the cycle repeats. selama lo belum sadar kalau pattern itu salah, semesta bakal terus ngirimin lu orang yang sama dengan ending yang sama persis. basically, you’re stuck in a loop until you finally wake up.
Setelah nyemplung ke REAL relationship, I’d say I totally AGREE with this. Jatuh cinta di keadaan menyenangkan memang mudah, but would you still do it when things get tough? :)
I DO LIKE having an uncomfy conversation. Like dari situ kita bisa belajar rasanya penolakan, rasanya dikritik, rasanya intropeksi diri, obrolin do&don’t dan baik buruknya kita as human being. Biar apa? Biar sadar kalau kita hidup sm pasangan itu SAMPAI TUA.
pernah gasih lu nangis ngeliat daily vlog ppl di europe, jp, sg? GW NANGIS karna kayak.. they are living their best life in a proper country, and here i am menjalani kehidupan WNI yg bahkan gw gatau segi mana yg bisa gw syukuri
nemu ini bagus bgt :
i don’t regret loving people wholeheartedly.
banyak yang bilang jangan terlalu nunjukin rasa, jangan terlalu effort, takutnya nanti disia-siain. but honestly, i don’t wanna love with a calculator in my hand.
my love tank has always been full. i grew up surrounded by love, effort, and people who made me feel cared for. so when i genuinely care about someone, giving comes naturally.
kalau suatu hari ternyata it doesn’t work out, yaudah. it doesn’t make everything i gave any less real.
Ternyata ada orang yang bertahan hidup cuma karena dia tau bunuh diri itu dosa 🥲 so guys pls be kind, be nice, be positive, be genuine in this cruel world.