Yuri from DDLC doki doki literature club yandere laying down in the classroom dead as the day passes in front of the MC, deafening loud depressing music plays / upset sadness depression mentally ill nothing ever happens changes sad upsetting suicide / reaction video meme
bc the more i think about it the less i know how i feel, it gets more confusing n more conflicting n ive told him but idk what else i can do, he just wont talk
n i still feel like i could put everything behind, legit forgive. n forget but hes not helping me, i need to talk abt it first either from an obscene perspective or a betrayed perspective but i neeed to to be able to move on n hes just dragging it for longer making it worse
for him to feel ready to talk, im so bored n tired but im too stubborn to accept that he wont do all that for me bc he ows me it n ive given alot for him to keep shit secret from me n fuck up the ONE thing i needed from him n it was just interest for me n for my body n my habits
he knows im unstable, he knows what i want n what i need n he keeps doing the opposite n making me feel bad when ive told him so many times in detail how to do better, i really dont feel like hes trying hard enough bc the times ive tried hard enough i stopped hating myself +
i stopped cutting for a while until we agreed to get sadomasochistic, i fought all the urges to kms, ive spent a ton of money n ive waited for so fkn long, i wait for him to wake up, to shower, to text me, i(try) to give him time when he just dissapears n im still waiting now +