Lapis !!

lapis| shtwt | she/they| bmi 26

[Lapis !! @grapplinghoookk]

New Intro!!

•shtwt (but i still get edtwt posts, im recovered the best I can be)
•im 17
•i like nascar & natasha lyonne & music theory
•I only post when im suicidal, so dont expect anything entertaining
•I also post cuts a lot, i censor them though

[Lapis !! @grapplinghoookk]

i may or may not be back

[Lapis !! @grapplinghoookk]

relapsed but not depressed just experiencing horrible derealization &i have nothing to smoke to give me my dopamine rush

[Lapis !! @grapplinghoookk]

nvm i want to die

[Lapis !! @grapplinghoookk]

im so proud of myself. i got a letter I wrote to myself in 8th grade and its started “Are you alive? I would be surprised.” Im so proud to make to to my senior year because I didnt think I was going to.

[¡ @unbabymomable]

Do you fw girls that hit rock bottom every 2 weeks

[Lapis !! @grapplinghoookk]

i dont understand how people with worse lives than mine havent killed themselves yet

[jami @starvingforyuri]

this is how it feels wearing shorts knowing you got scars

[erin 🍨 @Mirppypink]

me after one minor inconvenience

[silly and whimsy memes 🍭 @sillywhimsymeme]

cooked

[Lapis !! @grapplinghoookk]

@pippetter my mom has cheated on all of her girlfriends and expects me to like the new girlfriend like she full on was dating a woman 30 years younger than her it was like long distance before she broke up with her irl gf and bragged about it 💔

[Lapis !! @grapplinghoookk]

death sounds to promising, like its always there if things get bad idk that sounds edge but im suicidal what else can you ask for

[Lapis !! @grapplinghoookk]

another globber of a bruise that im not so sure where it came from

[Lapis !! @grapplinghoookk]

@Gh0st0fDr3ams i apologize

[🪽 @petplwy]

its such a slap in the face when ur # 1 person doesnt feel the same ab you