𝔣𝖾𝗆𝗂𝗇𝗂𝗇𝖾 ⸻  𝒻𝖾𝖾𝗅𝗂𝗇𝗀𝗌．†

　† ⠀ 𝖻𝗎𝗍𝖼𝗁 ⠀⚰︎⠀ 𝑡𝑤𝑒𝑛𝑡𝑦𝟺 ⠀⚰︎⠀ 𝗁𝖾 + 𝗍𝗁𝖾𝗒 + 𝗂𝗍 ⠀⠀ … ⠀⠀ mdni． 𝑑𝑒𝑎𝑑 𝑑𝑜𝑣𝑒： 𝗗𝗢 𝗡𝗢𝗧 𝗘𝗔𝗧．

[  𝔣𝖾𝗆𝗂𝗇𝗂𝗇𝖾 ⸻  𝒻𝖾𝖾𝗅𝗂𝗇𝗀𝗌．† @gravesents]

𝑑𝑑： 𝖽𝗈 𝗇𝗈𝗍 𝖾𝖺𝗍 ⠀ ［⠀…⠀］ ⠀ lived experiences． * internalized transphobia and lesbophobia， dysphoria， dysmorphia， sexual content， sexual assault， depression， suicidal ideation， self sabotage， gore， cannibalism．

[  𝔣𝖾𝗆𝗂𝗇𝗂𝗇𝖾 ⸻  𝒻𝖾𝖾𝗅𝗂𝗇𝗀𝗌．† @gravesents]

i don’t feel whole． or real．

[bab0oshka @bab0oshk44]

daniel hayes uppendahl, secret fetish photo anthology

[cinesthetic. @TheCinesthetic]

Bram Stoker’s Dracula (1992) dir. Francis Ford Coppola

[  𝔣𝖾𝗆𝗂𝗇𝗂𝗇𝖾 ⸻  𝒻𝖾𝖾𝗅𝗂𝗇𝗀𝗌．† @gravesents]

sometimes i wonder if i’d known the morning after． i wonder if i would have been as sick． i wonder if maybe i could have been gentler with myself if i never knew it happened．

[  𝔣𝖾𝗆𝗂𝗇𝗂𝗇𝖾 ⸻  𝒻𝖾𝖾𝗅𝗂𝗇𝗀𝗌．† @gravesents]

https://t.co/VvKJA4cgma

[  𝔣𝖾𝗆𝗂𝗇𝗂𝗇𝖾 ⸻  𝒻𝖾𝖾𝗅𝗂𝗇𝗀𝗌．† @gravesents]

still cant find you… where are you﹖ can’t find you． i miss you．

[ُ @grnte]

how can i ask anyone to love me when all i do is beg to be left alone?

[dreamland @dreamland_usa]

pictures i took as the storm descended

[  𝔣𝖾𝗆𝗂𝗇𝗂𝗇𝖾 ⸻  𝒻𝖾𝖾𝗅𝗂𝗇𝗀𝗌．† @gravesents]

and i’m sitting at a crossroads， waiting for somebody to meet me． nobody has． nobody is． nobody will．

[  𝔣𝖾𝗆𝗂𝗇𝗂𝗇𝖾 ⸻  𝒻𝖾𝖾𝗅𝗂𝗇𝗀𝗌．† @gravesents]

personal account． not a bot． writing is fully my own unless otherwise stated． do not copy+paste or repost． 𝗯𝗲 𝗿𝗲𝘀𝗽𝗲𝗰𝘁𝗳𝘂𝗹 ⸻ i vent here． i write about my own experiences here．

[  𝔣𝖾𝗆𝗂𝗇𝗂𝗇𝖾 ⸻  𝒻𝖾𝖾𝗅𝗂𝗇𝗀𝗌．† @gravesents]

𝑑𝑑： 𝖽𝗈 𝗇𝗈𝗍 𝖾𝖺𝗍 ⠀ ［⠀…⠀］ ⠀ lived experiences． * internalized transphobia and lesbophobia， dysphoria， dysmorphia， sexual content， sexual assault， depression， suicidal ideation， self sabotage， gore， cannibalism．

[  𝔣𝖾𝗆𝗂𝗇𝗂𝗇𝖾 ⸻  𝒻𝖾𝖾𝗅𝗂𝗇𝗀𝗌．† @gravesents]

i am learning not to starve the one thing i feel． i am learning to be gentler， to be more gracious． for me． for you．

[  𝔣𝖾𝗆𝗂𝗇𝗂𝗇𝖾 ⸻  𝒻𝖾𝖾𝗅𝗂𝗇𝗀𝗌．† @gravesents]

i wish it would take me， and i’m not picky about the it． let it be kind， let it be gentle， let it be a death kinder and genlter than my life has been．

[  𝔣𝖾𝗆𝗂𝗇𝗂𝗇𝖾 ⸻  𝒻𝖾𝖾𝗅𝗂𝗇𝗀𝗌．† @gravesents]

i want， i want， i want． it is unending， a need to sate and devour and fill myself with a love unknown．

[  𝔣𝖾𝗆𝗂𝗇𝗂𝗇𝖾 ⸻  𝒻𝖾𝖾𝗅𝗂𝗇𝗀𝗌．† @gravesents]

and what do i do when the things i love no longer distract me﹖ what do i do when it feels a little less suffocating dreaming about anything a little life changing﹖ never for better ⸻ all for worse． i wish something might break even．

[꩜ @adorewordss]

kafka diary entry of the day

[  𝔣𝖾𝗆𝗂𝗇𝗂𝗇𝖾 ⸻  𝒻𝖾𝖾𝗅𝗂𝗇𝗀𝗌．† @gravesents]

an empty grave held me better than any man before it and in my place it will hold the men to come.

[  𝔣𝖾𝗆𝗂𝗇𝗂𝗇𝖾 ⸻  𝒻𝖾𝖾𝗅𝗂𝗇𝗀𝗌．† @gravesents]

i don’t know who you are ， but i know i’m your mother. i know ， i know ， i know. ﹙ and i’m sorry for that⸻i’m sorry for you. ﹚

[  𝔣𝖾𝗆𝗂𝗇𝗂𝗇𝖾 ⸻  𝒻𝖾𝖾𝗅𝗂𝗇𝗀𝗌．† @gravesents]

i don’t really feel like living.

[  𝔣𝖾𝗆𝗂𝗇𝗂𝗇𝖾 ⸻  𝒻𝖾𝖾𝗅𝗂𝗇𝗀𝗌．† @gravesents]

i crack open my own ribs to feel the warmth ﹠ gentleness of someone pulling me back together. i use red ribbon to suture ﹠ satin to bandage … over ﹠ over ﹠ over ﹠ over ﹠ over. it isn’t sabotage if i gain from it.