یکی از دردناکترین تجربههای هر آدمی، خاموش شدن یک ذوق عمیقه، چیزی رو از دست ندادی اما دیگه برای هیچی نمیتونی مشتاق باشی، انگار چراغی درونت خاموش شده و برای مدتی همه چیز تاریکه.
I remember that time when I was younger. I was scared that thing would happen.
I told everybody that if it ever happened, I would jump from the fifth floor of my apartment building.
That thing happened, and I didn’t jump.
For five freaking years, I’ve been living feeling blue.
And now it’s happening again.
It tears me apart and breaks my heart again.
I don’t want to feel this anymore.
I think that if it happens, I’ll hurt myself, but deep down, I know it’s going to happen, and I probably won’t hurt myself, just like before.