grazaargh

doodling for struggling. visual journaling. self-regulation & stress reduction.

[grazaargh @grazaargh]

I push away everyone I love. And I rely on alcohol to save me from pain.. whatever.

[grazaargh @grazaargh]

Thirty and feels nothing. #hollowinside

[grazaargh @grazaargh]

I wish i could run away from my mind. My body. And my soul. Gone.

[grazaargh @grazaargh]

I don't want to be awake, i just want to run away.

[grazaargh @grazaargh]

If life was a race, let me just walk till I get to the finish line. There's gotta be someone who will be the looser,so there will be winner.

[grazaargh @grazaargh]

Day by day, year by year,(other people)marriage by marriage,(other people)baby to baby, how I stay the same; a never grown up "boy". Looser.

[grazaargh @grazaargh]

Beer always save me. At least to get me through the night.

[grazaargh @grazaargh]

The ugly, crappy, lonely me.
And life hurts me the most, for i can't fix myself.

[grazaargh @grazaargh]

A boy who can never grow up as a man,and trapped in a female destined body. How 'he' alw sees her life as a failure cos will never be 'her'.

[grazaargh @grazaargh]

Trying to get things done. Manage to try, actually, at real life.

[grazaargh @grazaargh]

I see one-black-eye dog with hanging tongue. #findingface well, and a guy with black beard.

[grazaargh @grazaargh]

"Rendezvous with myself".

[grazaargh @grazaargh]

Just wasted my 150k rupiahs only for beers. It helps me, yes. Is it worth? No. But i can't help not to do it. I just need to 'shut it down'.

[grazaargh @grazaargh]

I don't have wish. Why bother to have a wish if it's to be shattered in minutes?

[grazaargh @grazaargh]

What do you do when you feel hopeless about yourself?

[grazaargh @grazaargh]

My Clown Trigger:)
#abyssrium
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[grazaargh @grazaargh]

I am a monster. Who can understand what monster feels? No one. Lonely me, lonely monster.

[grazaargh @grazaargh]

I hate marrying stuffs!!! I hate attending wedding party. I hate wearing dress,heels&make up! I hate that i need e real big effort just4dat.

[grazaargh @grazaargh]

Four bottles of beer. Still driving and fine. God knows i''m drunk.

[grazaargh @grazaargh]

I like sleeping in the dark. It's when i can hide away (for awhile) from 'Life' which is hurting me over and over again.