Suhyun talks about how her life shut down for 2 years. “You say you’re fine, but the fact that you keep saying you’re fine is what worries me the most” - Chanhyuk
Suhyun: I started living like a mole. I blocked out all the sunlight and just lived like that. I think I lived that way for about two years. So I had truly given up on the future. There is no future. There is no better future for me. I was in such a state of helplessness, so severe that I couldn’t even gauge how bad I was myself, but my oppa came and talked to me.
“You say you’re fine, but the fact that you keep saying you’re fine is what looks the most dangerous.” He said that, and at the time he gave me a lot of small, gentle suggestions. I thought, if I can live like I used to again, I need to hold onto this. And from that point on, I started actively accepting my brother’s help.
Chanhyuk: I don’t know how you heard it, but I didn’t want to have regrets. Because when I looked 10, 20 years into the future, if I didn’t look after Suhyun now, decades later I felt like she would say, “Oppa, why didn’t you hold onto me back then?” I just saw that future for a moment. I thought, I don’t want to be that kind of person, so…
🐰 At that point, he said, “If I leave you like this, I might not be able to see you anymore.” Not right now, but… “If I keep leaving you like this, and no one takes care of you, someday that kind of future will come.” He said he was scared. That’s what he told me.
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