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i use astrology memes as a coping mechanism (tw: ed, anxiety, etc) || she/her

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꒰ pinning until i reach 52 kg ꒱

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tw // police brutality , rape , torture, violence , body image , death

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to end up smoking as well for no fucking reason and it worried me SO MUCH

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ok so im gonna describe what goes through my mind on a daily basis
like ill be doing ok and then my brain goes: what if u arent actually happy? what if you want to do x? what if you. . .? also *feelings of disconnection w myself and others*z

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also i used to have very bad crises as a child like i'd be ok and my brain would go "everyone u love is gonna die" + i used to freak out about smoking for no reason bc i thought everyone was smoking in secret and they were gonna die and i was worried i was going +

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my mom: stop obsessing
me: ma'am i think i have ocd i literally can't stop

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wait ... y'all feel like people ??? that's so cool ... how do y'all do it tho ...

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i ate a brownie

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im so hungry ny stomach aches

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@asshole_vents bro 😭😭😭

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@asshole_vents then: dokyuusei, kikis delivery service, totoro

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@asshole_vents do u like anime

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i just wanna feel likr a person again

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i wanna cry

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crying my eyes out rn 😂

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is this 😂 identity ocd 😂 or am i just 😂 in denial 😂 who knows ! 😂 i certainly do not 😂

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me:
my brain: ur not who u think u are u have been pretending ur whole life if u don't do what i say you'll die
me: