in almost all subjects, except physics and chemistry, wich was the subject i worked hardest in by far but i somehow messed it up and got terrible grades, so because of that no school accepted me, except apprenticeships but i couldnt find an employer yet the only course that
I hate the idea of being born into the ‘correct’ religion and very much afraid that If I leave because I do not feel a connection, that my heart is blind and that God has given up on me knowing I will lie in hell while my flesh and bones regenerate and ‘divine’ torment will be