What doesn't kill you makes you
ghost all your friends,
lose your appetite, rot in bed all day, lose your academic potential, overthink everything at 3am, stop replying to people you actually love, lose interest in things you used to enjoy, feel tired even after doing nothing
i now understand why ppl want to cope w alcohol and substances, i for myself am craving a smoke (i never had it ever since)
(i hate smoking down to my very last breath)
i hate hate hate relapsing. just when i thought i was doing better, it will all come crashing down again on me as if reminding me the lowest is where i belong. fuck, all i want is to stay clean.....