No one trashes your name better than the person who is terrified that you are going to tell people the truth. The loudest attacks often come from the people who have the most to hide. When someone knows their actions wouldn't survive honesty, they start rewriting the story before anyone else can tell it. They paint themselves as the victim, twist facts to fit their narrative, and hope that if they speak first and loud enough, nobody will question them.
When suffering is not alchemized it turns into being black-pilled, depression, and negativity.
When suffering is alchemized, it turns to wisdom, insight, and knowledge.