In the 80s, gay artist David Wojnarowicz took recordings of himself talking about art, friends, love, the fear of aids, losing friends to it, and later contracting it… this later became a book “the weight of the earth”… so actually gay ppl always “vlogged their HIV diagnosis”
It’s so easy to transmute jealousy and envy into admiration and hope… why not accept the evidence that something you want for yourself is achievable and be inspired that?
Why manifest the reality that it is achievable and just not for you?