@mamacitaxbri Its hard to heal when your inner child wants love and your teenage self wants revenge and the present self wants peace. Healing is a never ending process, it feels like we are on a never ending search to a place that doesn’t exist but it does.
I'm STILL healing. Healing from it all. I am healing from the mistakes I made in the past. From.. family issues, friendship issues, from failing myself, from disappointments, and from expectations I couldn't reach because I was too focused on the wrong things. Also healing from -
Trauma makes you hold onto people and tolerate a lot of shit you don't deserve because you don't want to feel alone. Healing makes you realize some people don't deserve to be in your life, no matter how much you love them.
You deserve a healthy love with someone who hears you, sees you, understands you, appreciates you, supports you, and loves you. Someone who is patient, communicates clearly, and creates a calm safe space to heal, grow, and bloom together. A love you never have to heal from.
nobody knows how many times I've sat in my room and cried, how many times I've lost hope, how many times I've been let down, how many times to hold back tears. sometimes the strongest people are the one who cried behind closed doors and fight battles that nobody knows about.
hardest pill i swallow this year was learning that no matter how good you could be to someone‚ no matter how much you love them‚ they can & they will turn their back on you & there’s absolutely nothing you can do but suck it up & keep moving forward.