Haj.

It’s a strange feeling, to have peace in my heart while a war rages on in my mind ; ISFP

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“Sleep doesn’t help if it’s your soul that’s tired."

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When M knows I've been feeling quite depressive lately, she has been very supportive eventhough she has her own set of problems. Always with the reminders. 🩶

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Maybe it's really a time for me to do a mental health check.

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To be force to go for a gathering is something that I don't want to. I have social anxiety thinking about it.

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I should probably go for a mental health assessment; for the sake of my children

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It's hard to be the one keeping it all in.

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The word will always be "If"; I'm struggling.

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Happy birthday to you old friend. 🩶

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I want to talk to someone about motherhood cause I feel like I'm failing as a mother.

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Why is it a must for the recruiting agents to ask on why we are leaving the company and looked for other jobs? If I say I hate the toxic environment, will they like it? 🫠

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I don't know why I'm really interested in applying for being a teacher in SPED school but after 15 years in nursing industry, I'm nervous for a change.

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Should I still try to apply for jobs? Or just give up and deal with what's going on now?

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I've put too much high hopes in finding a new job and I get disappointed over and over again. It's like I'm prone to receive it every single time. Sigh.

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Alot of walking done in korea and I'm so glad that I bought compression socks. 😭

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I feel less of a mother when I cooked using instant paste but I'm so overwhelm with so many things at the same time. I just.... I'm not a good mother.

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I always tell people to have tawakkul and patience but why can't I relay that message to myself? It's exhausting to feel this way everyday.

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Stop comparing about children and screentime. If your kids are able to be good kids without screentime, good for you. Not all parents have the same capacity to deal with the amount of pressure they are going through.

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Supposedly to end work by 8pm but ended up, I clocked out at 930pm. Oh when can I resign from this place? 🥲

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Maybe I should start afresh rather than feeling sorry for myself.

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My son has been officially diagnosed for autism level 2 & GDD (Global Developmental Delay) yesterday and instead of being sad, I felt a sense of relief. Because at least I know, my questions have been answered. No matter what, still proud of his small achievements. 💙

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I'm really grateful for my son to have a such understanding teacher. What's more, her own son is also autistic which inspires me more to learn about the spectrum. 🩵