I donโt miss the relationship I had with my mom because it was so toxic towards me and my life but my god I wish I could pick up the phone and call her. Iโm so angry at her but the little girl in me just wants her mom.
Went no contact w my mom. Moved into apartment. Moved out. Moved in w my person. Changed jobs. Starting healing deep wounds. Protected my children and was selfish w out time and energy. Got worse before it got better but thankful for everything this year has thrown at us.
after a season of chaos & truly some of the worst days, I am finally seeing the good again. more good things have happened in the last month than they have over the last 2 years. just freaking proud of how far Iโve come & canโt wait to see what the next year looks like โ๏ธ
Rowyn just got over brochiolitis, her dad and I both caught something and Iโm pretty sure itโs strep. Rhettโs coughing his lungs up. I need a break ๐ค๐ผ