ham

— looking for mooties.. not new to edtwt but has relapsed womp womp

[ham @hamtaru513]

Unpinning when I reach 49kg

[ham @hamtaru513]

Can wait to get my hair done e and lose weight

[ham @hamtaru513]

Gained 5kg and it is July, I’m so cooked I’m the heaviest I’ve been in like 2 years (I just came back from holiday lol)

[ham @hamtaru513]

Tell when I’m losing or gaining so I have to rely on a scale, just for the fucking scale that I use to be inaccurate I’m so pissed off. And I’m so broke rn so I don’t even have the money to buy a new one

[ham @hamtaru513]

The scale I bought makes me 2kg lighter than I actually am, so I stepped on the scale at the gym and saw that I’ve been at my highest weight, I think I should just kill me myself. I’m so upset rn I can’t believe im this heavy?? My body dysmorphia is so bad that I can’t

[ham @hamtaru513]

Spiralling because I stepped on the scale and I’m the heaviest I’ve been in 2 years

[ham @hamtaru513]

Spiralling because I stepped on the scale and I’m the heaviest I’ve been in 2 years

[ham @hamtaru513]

okay maybe I should be saying these affirmations out loud so that I can belive it

[Céa @thinfruit]

bye

[Kikin @ur0tsuk1]

I didnt kno chudai was some gooner shit i been walkin around the apartment saying everythings gna be chudai for the past month

[ham @hamtaru513]

Same….

[ham @hamtaru513]

Whenever I was a kid I was alwyas thought they were so miserable and sad, bc I really loved food so I always wondered how they could be happy if they depraved themselves off food specifically, it used to confuse me. Now here we are

[springflingana @springflingana]

what was your opinion on disordered people before you developed your ed?

[ham @hamtaru513]

So her

[ham @hamtaru513]

Idols often yoyo a lot

[starry @adpdayone]

biggest mystery to me isn’t how idols lose weight but how they don’t yoyo it back…

[ham @hamtaru513]

And legs were super skinny and her torso mismatched, it’s srsly such a crazy industry

[ham @hamtaru513]

Idk why but during winter I just eat si much and food is on my mind more than usual

[ham @hamtaru513]

@COCOKALS I’m really sorry for your loss, she was truly such a beautiful, funny and charming girl

[ham @hamtaru513]

Just went on TikTok to found out that out cheungfuny aka tingtingeats died… I’m literallly so shattered rn cuz I watch her insta lives wayyyy back and seeing her progress through her recovery was always such an inspiration for me I genuinely can’t believe this…

[ham @hamtaru513]

3kg

[ham @hamtaru513]

This was so triggering thank you

[nina🌙 @bearysad]

✧˚ · . cute black thinspo thread *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ
🎀 for #edtwt 🎀

[ham @hamtaru513]

I even have irls that know her irl so I can’t believe I’m on hearing this now this is insane. May her beautiful soul rest in peace

[ham @hamtaru513]

A part of me wants to be terribly sick again and then another part of me wants to ni longer obsess over every single piece of nutrition I out into my body so I’m torn, the answer is probably therapy

[demi • edtwt @demisd1ary]

me looking at my body during my peak ed phase