J ♡

i've lost all sense of a world outside, but i can't forget so i call your name 🤍

[J ♡ @hand0fglory]

updating this yuhh
- this acc is a total mishmash of whatevers on my mind, some of that is dysfunctional but there'll be nothing visually graphic
- tw for replies since I do interact w ppl who post that stuff (I dont agree w it but harm reduction advice and whatnot)
- cont.

[J ♡ @hand0fglory]

seeing the cure tomorrow not only is the heat warning suddenly extended until Saturday but its ALSO gonna be raining all day im gonna end it

[J ♡ @hand0fglory]

my vhs of the elephant man came with mold on the tape ☹️ "very good condition" 😒😒 its fine cuz i can get a refund and just buy it again but thats annoying lol I wanted to watch it 😭😭 im watching psycho instead tho 🤑🤑

[J ♡ @hand0fglory]

@morbidstalkers man stfu 😭😭

[J ♡ @hand0fglory]

@jvrhees_ I tried to quit cold turkey once and it made me completely crazy lol I dont think ill ever have the balls to attempt that ever again

[J ♡ @hand0fglory]

@slashedsecret I hope you dont tbh its not worth it at all. and i will !! I havent done it many times and im trying to stay away from sh in general as much as possible so it doesnt become easier to do so I think im good for now ‼️‼️

[J ♡ @hand0fglory]

@slashedsecret TLDR just dont do that lol 😭😭

[J ♡ @hand0fglory]

@slashedsecret im always so nervous abt that icl but I find it so impossible to cut deep on my thighs for some reason and other than that i only cut the side of my calf which also freaks me out cuz I feel like itd be easy to hit a muscle. cutting to fat is a stupid thing to do anyway theres no

[J ♡ @hand0fglory]

@slashedsecret good options theres just "absolutely do not ever do this or you will actually fucking die" options and "you only MIGHT die / paralyse yourself / lose all sensation in your limb / get sepsis / be abducted by aliens / cont" options

[J ♡ @hand0fglory]

I dont know if its a glands thing tho cuz ik when its from purging those lumps are further back so I assume that means if it was my glands being funky for some reason it would swell in the same spot. hmm. idk im not very smart maybe im wrong lol

[J ♡ @hand0fglory]

found a lump on my jaw and I havent purged in weeks if not months, place your bets is it cancer or did I just accidentally punch myself in the face at some point recently and forgot about it

[J ♡ @hand0fglory]

based on the symptoms I think i punched myself in the face but we'll see if it gets worse 😭😭 it wasnt there yesterday it kinda hurts but my teeth are fine and its not solid so I think im fine? hopefully lol cuz im not arsed doing anything about it

[J ♡ @hand0fglory]

@sweeteuodia @slashedsecret why would u add fuel to that fire unnecessarily just for a bit of an ego boost or whatever. I dunno lol i don't rlly consider myself fully integrated with shtwt or edtwt and thats kinda why, I talk abt it but im so strictly anti everything I dont wanna be associated w that side

[J ♡ @hand0fglory]

@sweeteuodia @slashedsecret fr I know part of that is gonna happen naturally which is why I dont agree with ppl posting their cuts unless its for advice or something. its good to have some place to talk abt this stuff and all the closed places kicked us off lol but its a competitive addiction already

[J ♡ @hand0fglory]

@slashedsecret @sweeteuodia NAH ITS OKAY LMAO THATS HOW I READ UR COMMENT 😭😭 youre right and the person thinking dermis cuts are scary is also very very right

[J ♡ @hand0fglory]

@impactgumi "go look at a body after its been fed through a meat grinder and tell me a compound fracture is bad" ?!?!!?!? its self harm by default its really really fucking bad 😭😭 ironically youd only ever hear that shit from tt LMAO

[J ♡ @hand0fglory]

@sweeteuodia @slashedsecret thats exactly the thing ppl on here treat cuts in the dermis like theyre nothing. thats still fucking insane, by the time youre down to fat youre not even in the skin anymore dermis is still mental it annoys me that ppl dont take it seriously

[J ♡ @hand0fglory]

@AngelsPuffss @slashedsecret if i go fully down to the fat layer it will make me queasy for the whole day after lol. if its just a few beads of fat im okay but anything else makes me so squeamish and it makes it so difficult to do any aftercare to prevent an infection. its not fun at all

[J ♡ @hand0fglory]

@slashedsecret the first time i did it was a total accident and from the second it happened nothing else worked for me. be so so careful please it's awful and obviously physically its extremely dangerous too especially if anything goes even remotely wrong with the healing process

[J ♡ @hand0fglory]

@slashedsecret it is lol, for me i havent done it many times but ive built up a tolerance in my brain so I dont get any of the adrenaline or endorphins from anything less. but yes it is scary and its completely fucking disgusting never ever do it if u can help it whatsoever

[J ♡ @hand0fglory]

@0calorieyogurt I had this happen too it's awful. I honestly have no advice because I dont know how to fix it either but I get u sm its so shitty having something like that just be ripped away from u that way before youre ready