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PLEASE READ... Truth be told, I have never done anything like this, and I feel like right now is a time of need for me and my family. I have always been so hard on myself and not truly understanding of how to explain my troubles but here I go. (This is not a sob story, but more of a cry of help) I am putting my pride to the side for this, and it is very hard for me to do) **CONDENSED VERSION** Thank you for your time...<3. At the end of 2019 I lost my dad, and it was the start of what I feel like was the worst my life has been. I started to go in a downhill spiral of depression and my anxiety was at its worst! I moved into my grandma's house that he was renting at the time to help take care of my brother and sister and his animals. This is also where my dad grew up and so did I. I took care of all living expenses and traveling expenses for my them to finish school... Even got them almost through 2 years of college and then they are left out. I got a job down here as soon as I could and quickly realized that they were taking a major chunk of my check from previous college debt! This was affecting me and my family (my lady, 5-year-old, 1year old, and animals) negatively. I had to do something, so I started fishing and washing cars on my own while streaming. It didn't clear up the debt, but now I had cash coming in to keep supporting my family. Then bam it all hit me. I got injured, then we lost an anchor at sea and I made like 0 dollars on a trip that took 8 days... This was the start of playing catch up and never catching up on bills. Me being the man that I am, I try to stay positive and say, "I got this" and "it will all be okay"... Well before I know it the repo man is driving away with my truck that I had almost paid off... 18k/32k paid on a safe reliable vehicle for my family now gone. I couldn't hide the truck not being in the driveaway. This led to stress on my whole family. I bought a vehicle that was used and needed repair, but I haven't been able to repair it fully yet. It is a great vehicle but needs some minor things to be more comfortable on the road with my family in it, such as new tires and a horn. Shortly after this, my ladies mother passes and then my blood grandpa passes a month after her passing. This leaves my lady with no parents and just my mother and as a grandparent for our kids. In this process we are already stressed and depressed. It has been one thing after another. I was able to hide my pain and be there for the family, but it affects how I do my work and makes me very ill feeling when too much is on my mind. My stomach gets in knots, and I can't think straight or operate properly. Now after all this I find out that my brother overdosed. He is now in rehab, but this engulfed my mind with bad thoughts. I need him here with me because I feel like it's my job to take care of them like I always have. I have always been the strong one growing up and raising the kids. They looked up to me and I've always been the big brother that grew up too fast to raise them due to my mother being out of the picture. My dad was involved in a wreck that incapacitated him (broke vertebrae in his neck, broke ribs, and ruptured stuff and messed his back up) He developed an addiction to pain meds leaving the kids to rely on me much more than the average brother! I've always had so much weight on my shoulders since I was a child. I feel like my walls are closing in and I can only keep this up for so long... I do not want to take away from anyone's struggles but it's hard for me to put my pride to the side and say any of this... But I truly feel like I have nobody to reach out to about this right now. I didn't want to disclose this... I've been so optimistic, and the streaming has been the happiest and most successful I have been in a very long time... Being here with my community with the love and compassion that I have received has been some of the only let up of depression I have had in a while. I have been full time on kick, and I truly would love to keep streaming, but because of my financial situation with having to move and the stress it is caused, it is hard. My grandmother evicted me out of the place so that she can sell the place. (Long story short) ... I'm a young man that is in shambles but I'm still holding on... If you read this to here, I just want to say thank you and I love you. PLEASE Retweet this for me to get the awareness out. If you are able to help out any form of way, it is more than appreciated by me and my family. Thank you everyone, this has been an amazing journey on kick, and I truly wouldn't want it any other way! Those of you that know me in my community knows that I don't ask for anything at all or talk about my problems much. I've always had the mindset of doing things on my own and this is different. I need help, truly. Any donation at all is appreciated. All donations will go towards the move, vehicle repairs, fence so we can keep all the animals, and current debt. https://t.co/9KG4KD2EaS