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It’s National Eating Disorders Association (NEDA) awareness week and if you don’t have the slightest clue on what that is then look at this. First Picture is the day I was admitted into hospital. I was able to say "Hi my names Lora and I have an eating disorder". Anorexia & bulimia to be exact. I’ve been fighting an eating disorder for 15 YEARS. I’m sure many of you have wondered over the years are assumed it was worst. Or your definition of worst. I was tired of fighting honestly.I stayed 2 months in treatment which felt like an eternity. The second photo is me NOW. When I went in I was 35 pounds literally on the verge of death entering treatment. It was probably one of the hardest things I’ve ever done in life. To actually fight for myself. At the time I never really knew how lucky I was to be there until leaving. But I never ever gave up. I couldn’t cause I had so much to live for. I remember thinking "I’ll never be able to eat like a normal person again" I destroyed my body over and over for a peace of mind I never got. I was so broken cause I had no control over my body anymore. It literally consumed me. I was to far gone to "just eat" and gain weight. Everyday was a "well will I die today"? I had no energy. I hated my life living before treatment. When you have an ED your body shrinks AND so does your mind.. Even your brain! So ALOT of us really don’t know that we even need help. I would be dead right now if it wasn’t for MUSC. It’s been 1 year since I’ve relapsed. I find my way back everytime. I thought I was alone in this fight. I was wrong. My mom, her love and fear in her voice kept me hanging on to life. I couldn’t leave. I couldn’t let myself die in front of my mom. She is what fueled me in my fight. I’m not where I wanna be. BUT I REFUSE TO GIVE UP UNTIL I AM. There are so many men and women struggling with an eating disorder so don’t be so quick to judge those you literally know nothing about. Your comments can literally fuel an eating disorder. It’s more than just making yourself vomit. It’s self starvation. It’s binge eating. Calorie counting. Body checking. Weight checks. Excessive exercise. An eating disorder comes in many forms. The world needs to be more aware of this disease most patients end their life cause they feel no way out of this monster in they’re head. Eating disorders have the highest mortality rate among all other mental illnesses. We need to change that. We have to be better and do better. I will not let Anorexia steal my life. I DESERVE A LIFE OUTSIDE OF AN EATING DISORDER!!! #eatingdisorderawareness #NEDAweek #anorexianervosarecovery