Haunted

Worthless sweet nothings

[Haunted @hauntedviolets_]

I'm falling apart
Feeling the million chains around my heart
Again I can't make my feelings heard
I lie telling you there is nothing inside my head
Dreaming of holding you for hours
But I can't even lock my eyes onto yours
You are my everything but with you I cannot do anything

[Haunted @hauntedviolets_]

I won't ever let you go even if the word ends

[Haunted @hauntedviolets_]

I keep falling
Stalling
Regretting
And crying
Waiting for someone to catch me

Only to drop me again

In the end
It's not so bad
If only I can catch someone else
Before I reach the bottom

Then I won't mind
Not at all

[Haunted @hauntedviolets_]

some of these are old, some of these ive just written, it doesn't matter, unfortunately they are just as relevant now

[Haunted @hauntedviolets_]

if i could rip apart

every desire, every envy, every single bit of poison away from me

every bone, every thought, every piece of flesh

throw it all away

would you accept me
would you think im worth existing
would you feel happy
would you finally love me

you wouldn't

[Haunted @hauntedviolets_]

please see me
please see me
please see me

i'm begging you
please look at me

[Haunted @hauntedviolets_]

all the happiness I had was probably a lie
the moments of calm just fleeting highs
your empty promises
my false hopes

just dreamy fiction in my head

yet they were such beautiful lies

[Haunted @hauntedviolets_]

Love is letting someone have the ability to hurt you.
And then hoping they wont.

[Haunted @hauntedviolets_]

Fell down again
Can't get up on my own
Never learned how
Always kept getting pulled up
Until people ran out

[Haunted @hauntedviolets_]

Where is my reason
Why does the morning come
There's nothing there

How can I live
When you are not here

[Haunted @hauntedviolets_]

some of these are so old, its so depressing, everything is the same it ever was

[Haunted @hauntedviolets_]

A thousand mistakes
A million regrets
All my futures and dreams with you
All gone
So much I'm never getting back

A billion tears
I wake up to a hundred cuts
But nothing brings you back
But here I am again

Alive for a reason I'll never find

[Haunted @hauntedviolets_]

I speak but there’s nothing there
My feelings lost in translation between my mind and words

Why can’t you understand
Why can’t you understand
Please understand

[Haunted @hauntedviolets_]

If I could hug you, I would
If I could forgive you, I would
Some did me wrong
Some didn't
It's all the same

I can't hate
I can't forget either
You could stab me
You could break my heart a billion times
And I'd still love you all the same

Forever

[Haunted @hauntedviolets_]

Gonna try to add all my "poems" here. The old ones, the new ones, the shit ones (which are all of them)

Also just gonna vent

feelings are pain