@ljlovesChrist To me it's motivating at first but when i don't actually reach the milestones in time it's so disappointing and depressing lol
I was also never able to reach the right amount of cals every day and it made me feel really awful and guilty and more prone to binging
I keep hearing about my disordered irl and how she eats almost nothing and exercises like crazy it's so violently triggering i feel like i'm being punched in the gut i want to cry
I'm almost 20 hours into a fast which is crazy i could go that long without anyone in the house noticing
I'll try to go for as long as i can but i don't think i'll reach 24h i don't want to be suspicious
i'm genuinely the dumbest bitch ever i'm so forgetful and easily distracted my brain genuinely does not want to work sometimes how the fuck do i get better this is scary