I often find my time is better spent in meditation
Than reading books
Why am I trying to jam more thoughts into an already chaotic mind?
Perhaps I need to find a good fiction book
In this life you begin at one extreme and overcompensate with the opposite until you finally find your balance. The pleasure seeker will become ascetic before they become well rounded, just as the zealot will become atheist before they become godly. This is the pattern of life. You start with one unhealthy predilection until it wears you down, and then believing the grass is greener on the other side you foolishly overcorrect in rebellion against yourself until eventually that too wears you down, coming to realise it is the oscillation between extremes rather than a mediocre blend of both that would create the most inhabitable state for you. You realise your soul has a rhythm, an ebb and flow you must lean into - that you have cycles - and that you don’t need to be defined by one particular stance or preference, but can inhabit multiple seeming contradictions harmoniously - you have finally accepted yourself - you have realised you can be a most beautiful paradox!
@theralkia I’ve been trying so hard to help my mom through this past year of chronic headaches and panic attacks
She’s losing hope and enters dr’s offices with lots of frustration and baggage and isn’t helped because of it
I am struggling world
@pngjoshh@theralkia You’d be ashamed if you were stripped of said pride inducing thing
And then you witnessed another reap that which he did not sow from that same pride inducing thing you had
All that’s to say, you took credit for a gift
most people I know who have made the most “meditative progress” have watched an absurd amount of dharma talks on youtube. Even though they’re really all repeating the same ten points, the thousand and first hour of hearing it seems to have benefit over the thousandth hour
@LudditeDesign I am also Jewish by blood on father’s side, Levite, but not halakhically Jewish because mother 1. Converted reform, 2. Started conversion a year before I was born and finished a year after