hopped back on twitter to find smosh people and i’m so glad i did but my mental health is so easily damaged by this app so i’m going to have to say bye again 🤍 love u all though!! sending all the love and blessings i can :)
I just saw a video of someone saying “going to my big girl job with my little girl sorrow” and that shook me to the core, one direction is the a part of attachment we have to our younger selves and probably why this feels so personal
I don’t think I really recognized how much of that teenage girl living inside of me still held on to one direction as a safety and a comfort until now .
anne’s words really hurt me, because she is right. that was just a boy, a boy with a dream and who got f*cked by the industry and were let down by so many. in my heart i just feel like he deserved things to go differently, he deserved to get help. this just feels… wrong.
it is just so strange to go from adoring a musician for years during the peak of your adolescence, have to then come to terms with the fact he is abusive and cruel in reality, and then have to learn of his gruesome death and try to fit that all into a neat statement