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i'm adrift and sunken and just need to feel at home in something —

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i had a pain inside me and i needed you to deepen it.

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when someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. you just know that your name is safe in their mouth.

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ugly angels spoke to me. the blame, i heard them say, was mine.

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i am trying to stop doing things that don’t make any sense. body, / forgive me. i am trying. i am trying. i am still trying.

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i guess by now i thought i'd be done with shame.

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& isn’t it funny / how silence can undress two bodies & press them into each other?

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i want to live the rest of my life, however long or short, with as much sweetness as i can decently manage, loving all the people i love.

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i had a pain inside me and i needed you to deepen it.

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i'm adrift and sunken and just need to feel at home in something —

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YES, DESIRE IS SO DIFFERENT WHEN GOD BORE YOU HUNGRY.

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ugly angels spoke to me. the blame, i heard them say, was mine.

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no need to unbury the tragedies of lineage. what was in the blood stayed.

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i woke up knowing your hands were once the only place in the world.

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this world is cruel to all things but its grace is unimaginable.

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those lovers are mostly gone. My hands remain–: like altars.

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i don’t want to talk about it. / i want to lie in what little grass remains / and try to fit your heart inside of mine.

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the hunger to be held, to be wanted, to / be called from the streets like the family / dog. you are not a good girl. you are not / somebody’s otherness.

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did he find that one last tender place to sink his teeth in?

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you realize, at last, that you can change without disappearing, that all you had to do was wait until the storm passes you over and you that — yes — your name is still attached to a living thing.