Call me crazy, but I was outside, walking around with my headphones and I used the microphone of it to have a convo with myself while also recording it (Idk why, just don’t ask).
Lifeguards deal with life and death situations and asking a crew of mostly teenagers to take on that responsibility while remaining clear headed in a crisis should be seen as ludicrous but most cities have very little regard for the position.
TIrigger warning just in case I'm miserable. I'm tired, every day i feel strong mental pain and all the spectrum of negative emotions, feel physically exhausted. don't want to live. I'm not happy.
It took me 8 years of overthinking, burnout, and self-judgment to realize what I’m about to tell you in 2 minutes. This is how neurodivergent minds - the anxious, the hyper-focused, the “too intense” ones - were never broken: