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17 (08) | 🇵🇰 | autistic ed haver

[z 🧣 @heoncals]

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a 🧵 for me

[st☆rgirl @xoxobfore]

Having all the symptoms of anorexia except being underweight so I'm just a larper

[z 🧣 @heoncals]

one pair of my jeans which used to sit just below my belly button sits by my hip bones now 🥳

[z 🧣 @heoncals]

exams are so soon i’m terrified but i can also barely eat because of anxiety ibut it’s good cause im losing weight again

[z 🧣 @heoncals]

exams are so soon i’m terrified but i can also barely eat because of anxiety ibut it’s good cause im losing weight again

[z 🧣 @heoncals]

having breakfast same as always eeeeek

[z 🧣 @heoncals]

mum is noticing that i’m not eating again wtf do i do

[z 🧣 @heoncals]

lost all my appetite bc im lowk failing academically 😆😆😆 do we see how autism and academic validation kills people

[z 🧣 @heoncals]

i’m so tired of school can i just drop out and die instead

[z 🧣 @heoncals]

i feel so ill i just want to give up

[z 🧣 @heoncals]

this courseowkr mark is lowkey gonna make me lock in and get v skinny because im just barely gonna eat now bc im upset with myself academically

[aoi edtwt˚୨୧⋆｡˚ ⋆ @A01saccharine]

Anorexic April then malnourished may I have to lock in those are my last 2 months to get skinny

[z 🧣 @heoncals]

shitposting on here bc i talk about academics on here more than i do on normal acc - so upset w my coursework mark, but it’s not even a failing on my part but because my teachers were NOT ACTIVELY GIVING ME FEEDBACK FOR THE PART THEY FAILED ME ON???? im so so upset

[z 🧣 @heoncals]

look so fat 🥲🥲 this is from earlier today but i’m just UGH 💔💔 can i just get skinny and die

[z 🧣 @heoncals]

already given up i’m not even trying anymore

[z 🧣 @heoncals]

˖ ⟡ ˚ ౨ৎ ⋆march accountability ⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ ࣪

a 🧵 for me

[z 🧣 @heoncals]

i can’t do ts

[z 🧣 @heoncals]

heeseung leaving enhypen being the thing that kills my appetite was not on my bingo list lol!!!!!

[z 🧣 @heoncals]

march 6 ⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ ࣪

again similar to past few days 🫩🫩 i’m so exhausted

[z 🧣 @heoncals]

˖ ⟡ ˚ ౨ৎ ⋆march accountability ⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ ࣪

a 🧵 for me

[z 🧣 @heoncals]

march 5 ⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ ࣪

similar to yesterday in cals but got less steps so i worked out. still a bit ill and keep falling asleep because i haven’t slept well in months

[z 🧣 @heoncals]

didn’t eat too much today but i didn’t work out or walk a lot because again im still exhausted

[poppy 🍓 edtwt @211cals]

A thigh gap would genuinely make me hate myself a little less

[keep the rain 𐔌՞. .՞𐦯 @iamcomposured]

no one talks about how vile an eating disorder is when both the rational and irrational sides of your brain are constantly at war with each other

[z 🧣 @heoncals]

i’m a fat fucking chud and i need to lock in from tomorrow