Here to scream into the void again.
One of my childhood best friends died early this morning and I don’t know how to process it. Extremely thankful to have 23 years together..but that definitely doesn’t feel like enough.
I’m trying to give myself grace but going from a super high functioning adult to having medical issues again sucks so fucking badly. I hate this so much. I’m exhausted and just attempting to do my best and it’s not enough and I feel like I’m letting down everyone in my life.
Honestly that “check on your friends” shit that pops up every time we learn of someones suicide is so hollow because it really just feels like y’all say that to comfort yourself in case they go thru with it, you can say it wasn’t you because you checked in frequently.