♱ nihil .

⠀⠀⠀⠀

[♱ nihil . @holysanctu]

♱ nihil emeritus . #mvrp. #ghostrp.
satanic pop star .

[♱ nihil . @holysanctu]

⠀⠀⠀⠀ i’m not —!
ugh. whatever .

[𝑺𝑰𝑺𝑻𝑬𝑹 𝑰𝑴𝑷𝑬𝑹𝑨𝑻𝑶𝑹 . @GRO0VYMOTHER]

why do YOU sound
agitated ?

[♱ nihil . @holysanctu]

⠀⠀⠀⠀ oh my god , sister .
no . i don’t . in fact— i end up calling them by YOUR name .

[𝑺𝑰𝑺𝑻𝑬𝑹 𝑰𝑴𝑷𝑬𝑹𝑨𝑻𝑶𝑹 . @GRO0VYMOTHER]

then why do you fuck
them ? do you tell them
you love them ?

[♱ nihil . @holysanctu]

⠀⠀⠀⠀ i don’t love anyone but you.

[𝑺𝑰𝑺𝑻𝑬𝑹 𝑰𝑴𝑷𝑬𝑹𝑨𝑻𝑶𝑹 . @GRO0VYMOTHER]

then why do you
love everyone else ?
did i not do enough ?

[♱ nihil . @holysanctu]

⠀⠀⠀⠀ i do . i love you more than anything.

[𝑺𝑰𝑺𝑻𝑬𝑹 𝑰𝑴𝑷𝑬𝑹𝑨𝑻𝑶𝑹 . @GRO0VYMOTHER]

then why don’t you love
me ?

[♱ nihil . @holysanctu]

⠀⠀⠀⠀ i could never hate you.

[𝑺𝑰𝑺𝑻𝑬𝑹 𝑰𝑴𝑷𝑬𝑹𝑨𝑻𝑶𝑹 . @GRO0VYMOTHER]

you’re being dramatic.
you truly hate me i believe .

[♱ nihil . @holysanctu]

⠀⠀⠀⠀ every second . every moment . my whole being yearns to be with you.

[𝑺𝑰𝑺𝑻𝑬𝑹 𝑰𝑴𝑷𝑬𝑹𝑨𝑻𝑶𝑹 . @GRO0VYMOTHER]

i thought that might help you .
give you some alone time with
your other life .

[♱ nihil . @holysanctu]

⠀⠀⠀⠀ my absence of you.

[𝑺𝑰𝑺𝑻𝑬𝑹 𝑰𝑴𝑷𝑬𝑹𝑨𝑻𝑶𝑹 . @GRO0VYMOTHER]

what is wrong with you .

[♱ nihil . @holysanctu]

⠀⠀⠀⠀ well, he’s usually too doped up to care if anyone else thinks he sounds bad .

[𝐸𝑀𝑀𝒜 ❦ @littlestcricket]

he has the same confidence of ( her ) bandmates.
it’s nice. in a way.

[♱ nihil . @holysanctu]

⠀⠀⠀⠀ it is .

[𝐸𝑀𝑀𝒜 ❦ @littlestcricket]

hm— well, everyone has their shtick.
hopefully his voice is as good as he makes it out to be.

[♱ nihil . @holysanctu]

⠀⠀⠀⠀he prefers to just do the singing .

[𝐸𝑀𝑀𝒜 ❦ @littlestcricket]

never heard of doing both?
you ca still sing AND play the drums— wiggling her fingers.

[♱ nihil . @holysanctu]

⠀⠀⠀⠀ he ain’t the drummer . just the singer . but he’ll take any attention he can get.

[𝐸𝑀𝑀𝒜 ❦ @littlestcricket]

. . okay. well, she’s listening.

[♱ nihil . @holysanctu]

⠀⠀⠀⠀ a sick drum beat .

[𝐸𝑀𝑀𝒜 ❦ @littlestcricket]

a keytar, a cigarette, and Ohmtown’s toxic fog ; what makes a better afternoon?
🚬. . .

[♱ nihil . @holysanctu]

⠀⠀⠀⠀ i need you.

[𝑺𝑰𝑺𝑻𝑬𝑹 𝑰𝑴𝑷𝑬𝑹𝑨𝑻𝑶𝑹 . @GRO0VYMOTHER]

that’s what i thought
you said . idiot .

[♱ nihil . @holysanctu]

⠀⠀⠀⠀ ugh . definitely missing .

[𝑺𝑰𝑺𝑻𝑬𝑹 𝑰𝑴𝑷𝑬𝑹𝑨𝑻𝑶𝑹 . @GRO0VYMOTHER]

might be .

[♱ nihil . @holysanctu]

⠀⠀⠀⠀ hmph.

[♱ nihil . @holysanctu]

⠀⠀⠀⠀ might be missing my wife .
fuck.

[♱ nihil . @holysanctu]

// need them both violently

[♱ nihil . @holysanctu]

// hc that he has strangely sharp canines

[♱ nihil . @holysanctu]

⠀⠀⠀⠀ yeah , heh .

( he takes his own drag, blowing it to the ceiling . )

[DR. FRANKENSTEIN @_Play1ngG0d_]

[He takes a deep draw from his cigarette, and blows it out to the side.]

Maybe I'll finally use a phone so I can call you more.

[♱ nihil . @holysanctu]

⠀⠀⠀⠀ as do i .

( he might have an attachment , but would never admit it . )

you’re fun to be around.

[DR. FRANKENSTEIN @_Play1ngG0d_]

[Victor loves it too. He might love Nihil a little bit.

He puts a cigarette between his lips, then hands Nihil his and lights them both with the same match.

Victor rests his cheek, wet with tears and sweat, against Nihil's shoulder.]

I wish you came to Switzerland more often.