i became good at pretending. i became so good that after a while the lines blurred between my truth and fiction. and sometimes, when i did a really good job of pretending, i even fooled myself.
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starting to drip down her cheeks
as he turned away ָ֢ she stepped
forward ٫ arms wrapping around
his torso from behind ָ֢
〝 please doyun ָ֢ ָ֢ please let me
*help you ָ֢ please 형 ָ֢ 〞
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she frowned at his words ٫ the
look in her eyes that of a sad
little sister ָ֢
〝 please doyun ָ֢ ָ֢ i donʾt want
to be your enemy and watch
you endlessly suffer ָ֢ 〞
her hands were trembling now ٫
tears
𖬺͟
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she frowned ٫ her expression
holding genuine worry that was
hard to fake ָ֢
〝 please doyun ָ֢ ָ֢ i canʾt watch
you suffer in silence ָ֢ ָ֢ 〞
she stepped back twords him ٫
arms open ٫ hands out .
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she frowned as she was pushed
away again ٫ hands gripping the
fabric of her dress ٫ eyes shining
with tears ָ֢
〝 because *i want to help you ٫
doyun .ᐟ i hate knowing that you
are *suffering ָ֢ 〞
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huffs. pressing the make–shift ice pack to his face. 〝 ... y’ should see th’ other guys、miss. this is nothin’. 〞 he hums、feels a lot better. 〝 not to brag、‘course. 〞
sharp eyes gazing straight at her as if closely inspecting the person. crunch of ice... feels strange trying to size–up a stanger offering a helping hand⎯⎯ averted gaze、bows head upon acceptance with a mumbled thanks.
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words more panicked now ٫
closing the distance between
them while arms throw
themselves around his shoulders ٫
pulling him into a hug ָ֢
〝 please ٫ doyun ٫ let me help
you ָ֢ 〞
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she stumbled back a bit as he
pushed the distance between
them ٫ but quickly regained her
footing ٫ a pout tugged on her
lips ָ֢
〝 iʾm not trying to trick you ٫
doyun ٫ iʾm trying to *help you .ᐟ 〞
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she looked up at him ٫ green
eyes filled with saccharin
sweetness ָ֢ she carefully
moved to stand in front of him ָ֢
〝 yes ָ֢ ָ֢ gwi—ma ָ֢ ָ֢ 〞
a frown pulling at her lips ٫ eyes
moving away once more as he
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