"hoje eu vejo um filme"
"hoje eu jogo tal jogo"
"hoje eu continuo aquele livro"
"agora sim eu termino aquela série"
eu às 17:00 na cama depois do 104º Reel do Instagram
i hate hate HATE that i require so much reassurance like things could be going perfectly fine but there's always a part of me that believes that all of it is a lie
hate my stupid sensitive overthinking ruminating fearful anxious clingy needy brain like Why does any Tiny shift in someone’s tone or response to me = i am in trouble + they are mad at me + they hate me + they think im stupid & weird & unlikable & will abandon me & i am GONNA DIE
i am a horrible friend, and i am aware of this; i ignore messages, i barely reach out, i do not open up about my feelings or experiences, i do not know how to comfort, react to their pain or empathise with them; i am avoidant and push them away.. just to whine about it later