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i suffocate

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Being around a naturally skinny person will have u questioning if u have binge eating disorder

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Yesterday someone told me that they dont believe i have an ed because i need more “push” ahahahaha i am going to keel myself now

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Im actually curious as to why lana del rey is associated with eds so much

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“Rt if your bmi is lower than-” [GUNSHOT ECHOES]

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Been binging like crazy i feel so fucking gross and big

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I look so lifeless it makes me feel pity for myself

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There is a bottomless pit of emptiness behind my eyes whenever im restricting

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Wow i am so bloated

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Happy days

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I want cookie dough… like REAL cookie dough not just a cookie dough flavored protein bar

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Tbf she was bodychecking but still. Everyone was so insensitive

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I saw this tiktok of a girl trying on her old clothes from when she had an ed and talking abt how devastating it is to see her body change and all the comments were like
“Skinny women complaining abt being slightly less skinny”
“Girl shut up u look fine”
Like. U just dont get it

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@felthoes That looks so good

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Idk what’s happening rn

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I feel like im about to throw up

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Like wow ok so im just a shitty person

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Me when i found out that the girl i was competing with in my head actually weighs more than me now

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ive always had this TINY bit of fat right below my pelvis that annoys the shit out of me bc i can never seem to get rid of it... even at my lw it was still there

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But the worst part is that i cant just NOT care about these things… like i am so insecure it leaves me no choice but to devote so much time to my vanity

I will grow out of this and be better. Some day

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I had this realization while doing my skincare earlier that im becoming just like my mother… from my disordered eating to skincare obsession to borderline shopping addiction… im literally turning into her