mattie

@edendisordr ˚ʚ♡ɞ˚

[gigi ૮꒰◞ ˕ ◟ ྀི꒱ა | shedtwt !! @sikfukc]

why do I keep doing this to myself

[jaye @jayesuki]

how is everyone so thin and i’m a fucking pig

[gigi ۶ৎ @lacybees]

fat distribution is so weird bc yes my collarbones are visible and yes my thighs could sink a cruise ship if the opportunity presented itself

[mattie @hueningcaIs]

i’ve disappointed her i know that i’m sorry

[mattie @hueningcaIs]

i will never be able to forgive myself for what i’ve done to myself

[mattie @hueningcaIs]

and i’ll never be able to look at my mother and not feel shame deep inside me

[mattie @hueningcaIs]

puppy

[˗ˏˋ» 🦄┆ Ӻ𐒢ᎿᎿᎥ !┆⳽ⲏⲉ𝖽τⲱτ ˎˊ˗ @fetticayke]

being short and trying to lose weight is such a humiliation ritual because wdym i’d have to be 100lbs for me to just be AVERAGE. 🫩

[pinkie v @sourberryvi]

you deserve better than living with the gut wrenching feeling that you’ve done something horribly wrong all the time

[mattie @hueningcaIs]

me rn 😭

[𝒓𝒆𝒎𝒆 ྀིྀི @remorexic]

are you ever so annoyed you wanna restrict harder

[pinkie v @sourberryvi]

can we normalize being talentless brainless hopeless hobbyless friendless and just generally useless

[mattie @hueningcaIs]

gonna turn all my anger into fucking motivation to get off my lazy ass because i obviously didn’t get tickets because im fat and god decided that makes me unworthy

[mattie @hueningcaIs]

genuinely seething at this point fuck everyone

[mattie @hueningcaIs]

i hate greedy bitches they’re always fat and ugly

[ًellie @hwllsq]

i need to look this tiny

[Jake :P @Jakieypea]

I keep eating and eating and eating where the fuck is the disorder

[mattie @hueningcaIs]

i am not doing well today is going to be very long

[mattie @hueningcaIs]

final statsssss 21,216 steps 13km and 3:37 mins

[mattie @hueningcaIs]

attempting 20k steps today which is a terrible idea considering i do absolutely nothing everyday 😭

[mattie @hueningcaIs]

i made it to 20k but i’m so close to 13km and now i have to do that cause yeah

[mattie @hueningcaIs]

@edendisordr this just reminded me water exists 😭