Self care and spending sometime alone is important for your thoughts to grow and improvise, you cannot just stay somewhere between a crowd try forgetting things. Life just doesnt happen that way. It needs a change and the change begins with you.
Everyday is full of surprises, you wake up prepared for a normal routine of yours yet somedays you find
surprises which make your routine either the best or the worst.
The life you choose is the life you always wanted and the life you got is the life someone else always wished for. Be happy in what you have right now and don't let go what you have today.
The world you have created in your head could be the root cause of your misery, try changing perspective and explore yourself a little, you never know how better you can get with time.
It's sad when we try helping out someone with the intention of a pure gesture, yet we recieve the most disastrous come back with the choice of words the person uses to appreciate the help given.