69 years. Sixty nine years. And you’re allowing foot soldiers to talk to you anyhow because they hang around with politicians and pocket 25k from shady deals.
Except maybe the love of God, you’re not automatically deserving of much in life. Most things worth having have to be earned or worked toward in some way. Want a good career? Work for it. Want a good partner? Work on becoming a good partner yourself. Something has to give.