pixel 👻 edtwt

burning calories AND galaxies 𖦹 24, MDNI | he/they | shedtwt/venttwt/digital diary | sw: 250 cw: 218 gw1: 215 ugw: 110

[pixel 👻 edtwt @hxngergains]

same account, new intro/pinned!
-looking for more active edtwt moots
𖦹pixel (he/they) ☁︎24 (mdni)
☁︎ednos , ocd, cptsd, bp1 𖦹 trans man
𖦹 sw 252, cw 222🤮 ☁︎ in sh recovery for now, no sh pics ☁︎ i fb!!

:) like/rt for moots!
#edtwt #edrtwt

[pixel 👻 edtwt @hxngergains]

hi chat, I am leaving twt to attempt recovery. ily all ❤️❤️ if u want to msg on other apps dm me I’ll keep them open for a while but I won’t be active :3

[pixel 👻 edtwt @hxngergains]

I binged and I’m still back down to 218 THANK YOU UNIVERSE 💪💪🥰🥰🤩🤩🤩❤️❤️❤️

[Mr. shiteater 🦀 @Bittersweettruf]

PLEASE GOD MAKE ME LOOK LIKE THIS PLEASE BONE STRUCTURE PLEASE LET ME LOOK LIKE THIS BEHIND ALL THIS WEIGHT

[nico di angelo @fp6ddnmd]

⋆༺𓆩☠︎︎𓆪༻⋆
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☣︎ alternative masc #thinspo for #edrtwt ☣︎
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⛧ a thread ⛧

[pixel 👻 edtwt @hxngergains]

@caffeineismylov (I have it)

[pixel 👻 edtwt @hxngergains]

@caffeineismylov dude antipsychotic hunger is something I wouldn’t wish on my worst enemy

[pixel 👻 edtwt @hxngergains]

fuel to get myself to actually function and clean lmao… (it’s not working)

[pixel 👻 edtwt @hxngergains]

@torib0ri I legit would pick the highest calorie foods and eat till I couldn’t and it wasn’t like a weird thing I was young it was just how I dealt with it ig

[pixel 👻 edtwt @hxngergains]

@torib0ri lowkey this is how my binge eating started,,, I was assaulted when I was younger and I intentionally tried to gain weight after that idk why. I think it was to make myself just someone different from the person who went through that, the same way I want to now

[𝘌𝘮𝘪 ⋆. 𐙚 ˚ || 𝘧𝘢𝘪𝘭𝘦𝘥 𝘳𝘦𝘤𝘰𝘷 @emimimimimiii]

when I was only 3lbs away from my gw so I decided to binge back 30lbs ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹🥹

[pixel 👻 edtwt @hxngergains]

went to look at r*covery content (trying not to show up on that side of twt) and saw that everyone’s skinny….ok locking back in it was a nice thought

[pixel 👻 edtwt @hxngergains]

CHAT QUICK SHOULD I USE HALF MY SPENDING MONEY FOR THIS PAYCHECK ON A WEED PEN

[pixel 👻 edtwt @hxngergains]

yummmiess

[pixel 👻 edtwt @hxngergains]

guys I am so sorry for crashing out on ur tl last night LOL . In other news back down to 219 🫡

[gloomi @iamgloomi]

somewhere along the way i stopped being myself and became nothing more than a body for this disorder to inhabit

[pixel 👻 edtwt @hxngergains]

guys it was not that serious

[pixel 👻 edtwt @hxngergains]

my cat is running around me and meowing she knows I can’t I can’t I can’t I can’t

[pixel 👻 edtwt @hxngergains]

i fucking hate my stupid fucking life no one cares and it’s all my fault i pushed everyone away and now all i can do is fucking starve myself and work as much as i can and suffer suffer suffer I don’t know who I ambwithout him 2 fucking years and I don’t even feel like a person

[pixel 👻 edtwt @hxngergains]

I fear I am genuinely starting to love the feeling starving gives me and not just the weight loss.. I might be cooked actually

[pixel 👻 edtwt @hxngergains]

i always feel like I haven’t earned recovery yet because I’ve only lost 30 lbs and im still so obese and I mainly binge but when will I earn recovery? when will it feel like enough?

[pixel 👻 edtwt @hxngergains]

petting my cat thinking about the fact she couldn’t live without me… idk . sometimes i wonder what life would be like without an ed/in recovery…