i no longer miss the person, actually i dont want see him anymor, but what haunts me the most is the pain from all disrespect and traumas from betrayal
the pain is still here, i did everything to forget, to move forward, its been a year, but the pain feels like it just happened yesterday, i hope the trauma, pain, stop haunting me, and let me go
at the end of the day, the love I gave him was a reminder of what kind of person i was and the pain he gave me was the embodiment of the person he is. I can't let my old self disappear completely just because I was once desperately in love with a made up version of him.