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bulimic selfharming gymbro

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and i’ve drank three days in a row its so fucking fun borderline starving and getting drunk

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its 2am i cant sleep bc im back to omads and im lowkey v hungry rn but like fuckk

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what if i treat myself to no dinner and one buzzball 👀

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all it takes is a combination of caffeine nicotine a cart and electrolytes

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when it starts feeling like ur finally in control again

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it is what it is they be like whos she shes a whole different animal 🤔🤔🤔

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was onto something with the 25mg adderall + double shot espresso everyday tho 🔥🔥 despite it sending me into severe psychosis a few months later and i spent the following year frying my brain with hella weed tryna avoid coping with it but like hey.. shit happens

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is it bad i miss the era i would starve and overdo cardio even tho im way leaner now lifting, incline running, and eating clean soley bc i truly loved how much i suffered back then

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i would deadass run 3-5 miles a day and replenish with Nothing expecting myself to wake up w the will to live the next day? crazy bitch

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omg i had a dream everyone surrounding me was fat like obsese in an astronomical way and im just so confused whst does rhat even mean

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let me move to gymtwt

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too many thoughts that’ll make me feel like a terrible friend if i speak them out loud

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temptation everywhere

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acid reflux keeps making me throw up half my food (unintentionally) and the urge to lose muscle is coming back so im gonna attempt fasting again

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@rikip4ws stay strong new oomf 🩵🩵 i believe u can find happiness again soon

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sorry needed to get that thread out bye again

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i still really miss weed all the fucking time tho