My life is just
starve -> euphoria from it being easy + liking my body and weight -> Crashing and Burning out -> reach a low weight i like -> "idgaf im still gonna be thin", eat whatever/more -> actually gain noticeable weight-> self hatred and disgust at the weight gain ->repeat
I keep trying I have so much set out to do and how I’m going to act and then I lose it all. I want to have full control. I want him to be sorry. I want everyone to be sorry