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still on break, but i want to share with you my analysis of tjyw and why their dynamic hit me this hard, to the point where i literally "struggle to get them out of my head".
before starting, i want to make it clear that im naturally drawn to enjoy dynamics like theirs (messy, turbulent, complicated ones) so im 100% aware of their toxicity, but i cant help falling for them anyway. and despite thinking that the narrative slaughtered them and that their execution during s3 (and half of s2) was questionable at best, their bond always remains the very core of ws for me.

this is a story about morally grey characters. men in love who make questionable choices, mistakes and take wrong paths. but being "morally grey" doesn't necessarily mean being evil. when a character is morally grey, it simply means they're human, with both their good sides and their worst ones.
this is a story about two poor orphans who had nothing but each other, in a world that was too cruel and too big for them. but at the same time, how could you explain what love is to someone who never really received anything from life in the first place or who lost everything when he was little?

shin youngwoo is an avoidant because of his childhood trauma. extrovert but cold, prideful, terrified of becoming just like his negligent mother. a man so afraid of love that he constantly runs away from it whenever he gets the chance, while desperately craving it to the point of enduring almost anything. a reckless man who doesn't really think before acting and doesn't communicate at all, but who is also incredibly smart and sharp. someone who constantly "tests" his best friend's obsession with him, trying to see whether taejoon will choose him or not, while claiming to be his priority despite never once admitting the truth about his own feelings in 20 years. he's kind, polite and careful, but also extremely selfish at the same time. he's aware that he's ruining his best friend's life and he feels guilty about it, but he still chooses to indulge his selfish desire to stay with him because his love his bigger than his guilt. a man who, before loving anyone else, should have learned how to love himself first.

oh taejoon has abandonment anxiety issues because of his childhood trauma. he's introverted, closed, smart, sensitive and naturally driven to lead, but extremely insecure and scared at the same time. a fool, youngwoo used to think. well, he actually was a fool for believing he could have both youngwoo and the gang at the same time. a man shaped by regrets, terrible mistakes and wrong choices. a man who loved so deeply that he used everything within his power to keep his best friend by his side, painfully aware of his own mistakes and selfish desires. but once again, his love is bigger than his guilt.
a man so scared of losing his best friend that he deliberately ignored youngwoo's needs and desires. a man who, before living for anyone else, should have learned how to live by himself first.

this is a story about two men who desperately wanted to reach each other but had nothing in their hands with which to do it. one man simply wanted to live a quiet, ordinary life. the other used to believe that power and money could make him someone and protect him and youngwoo. a story about two men whom the world tried to tear apart over and over again, but never quite managed to.
a story about two men to whom life gave nothing but each other. they are both good people, but the problem was that the world around them wasn't.
and a world like that can turn you into a monster.

shin youngwoo is the bravest man in this story. he realized how this was going to destroy both him and his best friend and took a step back before it was too late. endured, but saw the best and the worst of the man he loves, as much as taejoon saw the best and the worst of him. their love is raw, messy, complicated. definitely toxic, and far too complex to be defined by codependency alone. but still... is love.

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oh-shin family bizarre adventures

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他在撒娇呢

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Forever young
I want to be forever young
Do you really want to live forever?
Forever and ever

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can we please get past this shitty green flag/red flag obsession in bl////twt because characters don't need to be morally classified at every turn

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@afiafi26 thank you sya 🖤🖤🫶

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the streets said i graduated

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@poalns1 thank you 🖤🖤🖤

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@kai_yonce thank you sweetie 🖤🫶

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i still don’t get how or why everything was so rushed. probably the fandom was one of the main reasons, but i can understand people’s frustrations because i have my own as well. i can’t blame anyone for complaining about yw leaving tj without saying a word, or about the lack of more povs from both yw and tj. the more i think about the ending, the more disappointed i feel for so many reasons, despite the fact that i’ll treasure their domestic moments in my heart forever. i loved this story, truly, but still, i really think that neither we as readers nor they as characters deserved this :/

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there are a lot of things i can complain about when it comes to the story, but one thing that is truly UNFORGIVABLE to me is the lack of a final smut. and it’s not even about sex itself, but about the dynamic of THIS kind of intimacy. if they look so hesitant, almost scared, to touch each other just for a kiss, can you imagine HOW overwhelming it must have felt to finally be intimate again after two years apart? for the first time in years, they finally have all the time in the world. no running away, no having to hide, no wondering if they’ll get another chance. just the two of them.

im still so disappointed

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@VestigiaFlamae i wanted to see them acting like is the first time they see each other naked 😩

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tj sitting on the couch with a glass of whiskey completely entertained as yw slowly turns taking off his welder’s suit into a full-on strip tease show just for him

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THIS !!! and don’t forget the smut that was actually a DREAM 😭 like, i get that sex isn’t everything in a relationship (although i personally see it as another form of communication), but at least,,,, give us the final one 😭 i feel like if i start talking about the things that pissed me off i would become really annoying

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@melaninminsung the way we were robbed 😩😩

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@NanaRyuu08 i feel like she was REALLY tired of the fandom and i cant blame her :/

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@coupsangie thanks 🫶🖤

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@heartey_TJ_wife thank you 🖤

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@yujibokuto thanks 🫶🖤

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@FairyCarmi grazie amooo 🖤🖤 momento altissimo sentir parlare il mio relatore di ROHAN KISHIBE giuro ho volato

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@tooshik_ grazie 🖤🖤🖤

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@itsnotk2real thanks 🖤🖤🫶 graduated with a thesis on the importance of michelangelo's art in jjba 🫢 im so proud, everyone were so interested

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@Sang_oO thanks 🖤