The good thing about faith is that it keeps you joyful and energized while you are trusting God to change the current reality. There is no one who escapes difficult times, but with the right perspective, we can let God use them to make us stronger.
You were already chosen for your purpose in life before you went through anything that made you feel unqualified or like you’re not enough.
You’re still the one.
You're doing your best, and that best will look different everyday. Somedays your best is super productive, and other days it's just managing the bare minimum. Stop comparing yourself to past versions of you. Allow yourself to change. Your future self is waiting on you.
Do not accept an abusive history as your story. The actions that took place were on behalf of your abuser(s), therefore that is their story. Your story is being the one who restored what was taken from you. You are the rescuer. Now, go live your life based on that truth.
It's time to distance yourself from the people who let you down, the inconsistent ones. Realize that they’re not acting out of character. That is their character. Not caring about your feelings or how much you genuinely care about them is who they are. Accept it and move on.