Becoming less reactive is a big part of growth and decreasing stress. Sometimes this type of avoidance can be looked at as lack of interest or uncaring, but it isn't. If you let everything get you worked up, you're damaging your mind, body and soul.
Your soul has been broken you say? Get back to reading poets, novelist, philosophers and playwrights. Get up to look at paintings and sculptures. Take time to listen to musicians. Go watch movies, plays and the ballet. Art mends the broken soul.
A lot of the bloodline mixes are poor minds acquiring gifts of the powerful through procreation only to wield the gifts with their poor & weak characters, causing catastrophic disasters.
True power has to be earned to be held.
You can't perform your way to prosperity
You can't fake your way to fulfillment
The energy you take into everything is the energy you get back in return
Humility brings incredibly freedom because it removes the need to pretend that you know everything. Humility means you can follow your open hearted curiosity and accept the information the universe brings. It means your mind is open to new ways of being.