-eldest son of the family
-doing a degree with no future scope
-middle class family
-whole responsibility on me
-expected to succeed no matter what
-younger siblings looking up to me
-still trying to figure out life
Emotionally unavailable parents , non supportive brother , people who doesn't care about me as called frnds , In a relationship I feel uncomfortable to share with , even thought I can say it online cause nobody wants to listen to my words so I create my space to vent out !
I've thinking about killing myself I thought my family would change my thoughts but they increasing it more , no body wants to listen what I'm saying , that made me to never open again to anyone , is it my curse to like like this ? Just why ?
I've feel exhausted, I think I need a break from people's and let my life to be live alone maybe ignorance will be the best option to choose on someone or something that you don't like to live with , let's have some peace first take care of your mental health . Be kind !
I'm the definition of failure who failed in relationships with family , brother , failed in my academics , failed as having insecurities, failed to fight back , failed to speak , failed to stand , failed to have good friendship , Nothing I'm good at , I'm just a failure !
Why he hates me and stand against me , just because of me beaten him , just for a dog that he doesn't taken care of , he hates me , he doesn't even care about me , doesn't care about my mom and yeah he is my so called brother