When I ask if they want anything and they say no when we're about to do stuff and all of a sudden I feel like my body us disgusting that ill never be good enough and that I should just leave
My anxiety is literally crippling. One moment im normal, and then all of a sudden, im nearly puking, and my stomach will be sore for days after so bad that I will barely be able to eat.
I hate how they'll touch me and just act like im not supposed to like it or when they'll do it because i do they wont do it until im satisfied when i satisfy both of them.
Our love felt mutual.
Now, with another person, you both love each other more than you do me.
It no longer feels mutual.
I no longer feel seen. If anything, i feel the need to disappear from this entirely