Starting uni and starving is literally so easy cause I have ZERO time to think about food or weight or anything I'm just in survival mode trying not to faint and taking notes while sleepin 5 hours a day lol
Currently on a diet where I have to avoid colorful fruits and veggies at all costs bc my skin is yellow from eating too many carotenes with a low bf, I miss my food so fucking much is literally all I would allow myself to eat. Safe to say I'm incredibly suicidal rn
hate my stupid sensitive overthinking ruminating fearful anxious clingy needy brain like Why does any Tiny shift in someone’s tone or response to me = i am in trouble + they are mad at me + they hate me + they think im stupid & weird & unlikable & will abandon me & i am GONNA DIE