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[. @iceseel50]

If i ever do post art ever again it wouldn’t be on here.
I know i’m screaming into a void but if anyone sees this… just know that I am at least living and still drawing, just not on here anymore.
But i just can’t trust people a lot anymore.

[. @iceseel50]

I’m sorry, i can’t get over being vagueposted, then people i know seeing me as inhuman or weird.
People claim to care about mental illness till they see someone like me. I’m keeping this account up but i won’t want to use it again.

[. @iceseel50]

@TheSpaceHatter Newgrounds in general wasn’t that fun.
I never got a front page.
A lot of people there are mean especially popular ones

[sabunny @mama_moons]

when u don't reply to anyone bc ur going thru it and everyone hates u and wants u dead now

[. @iceseel50]

@ritascounteratk Clefable

[. @iceseel50]

Fursona

[. @iceseel50]

Ok I turned off private since I know people still wanna look at my art.
I just give up at the moment…
If any drama occurs, It’s over.

[. @iceseel50]

I wish I could be a trans woman but i’m already AFAB
I wish i could be something/someone else
I could’ve been more, I could’ve been well loved and famous

[. @iceseel50]

I wouldve done anything to be pollyanoids friend again i wouldve sold my kidney i would’ve done so much omg i am just crashing out sorry but I’d probably never get over it and i’d never get an apology i will probably never post art here again

[. @iceseel50]

My art from 2019 was so cute but it’s bittersweet.
I wish i wasn’t betrayed by those i knew from 2019.😣
Maybe i’ll post new art one day or something

[. @iceseel50]

I guess it’s fine if there’s fans of her work, I can’t control lives after all l, and it’s about the person not art. But what she did traumatized me and left me anxious and scared even to this day.
maybe one day I’ll muster up the strength to mention it publicly or something.

[. @iceseel50]

At this point I just wanna make a public (instagram) post about the whole pollyanoid situation really. I’m still paranoid people support her stuff- but I generally just hope she doesn’t hurt anyone else. And also that I didn’t like how I was vagueposted back then…

[. @iceseel50]

I don’t think it will ever get better, it’s too ingrained in me. I see just even a mention of something like massachusetts and i think of polly and the pain she did to me. I’m sorry to everyone who’s here for my art but i don’t think i’ll come back.

[. @iceseel50]

whats the logic of having so many friends but me? well, at least the vaguepost has been gone for a very long while.

Just saw that account since i had yet another nightmare about her

[. @iceseel50]

I feel like publicly crashing out about that blue alien again bruh it’s the demons inside me but I literally don’t know how to make friends nowadays even when the recipient is super similar to me like bruh- at least just mutuals or something i’m begging ahhhhhhh

[. @iceseel50]

you all got any suggestions how to be friends with polly let me know

[. @iceseel50]

I guess I’ll start by being more optimistic.

I CAN be friends with her, just gotta wait, just a wrong place wrong time thing…

But even then, the last year stuff would always break me, but I have high hopes it can be successful in the future.

[. @iceseel50]

I will be at art fight 2025 if you want to follow me, send me a message for the user.

Anyways, I’m always still crashing out about wanting to be P_lly_noid’s friend. Unless things get better and I can actually come back to social media.

This AF I plan to do more drawings tho

[. @iceseel50]

i would’ve sold my kidney to be a certain blue blonde alien from newground’s friend i feel like everyones out to get me and keeping secrets and i don’t feel accepted but I still dont want to purge my account on here, I’m still suffering after 1 year

[. @iceseel50]

Hi guys I have made my account private because of personal reasons and that I don’t want to use social media happen.
Last year was horrible and I was scared off the internet by an incident so I don’t have trust with the internet much anymore.